Shattered dreams.

2011-02-17T23:28:00.001+08:00

THANKYOU.
to those who encourage me to continue trying hard,
Yongyong, Kai an & wanfeng, and abigail which i keep pester you to teach me :)

2011-02-17T22:07:00.001+08:00

i'm back.
To rant about my screwed up life.
i deserve it, i shld have knw my calibre and dont even try when it's pointless.
Now,i cant make a u-turn after choosing this path.
i'm really crumpled.
Dontknw wht to do next..

2010-10-12T17:16:00.001+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK.

Three words to describe my feelings now.

2010-06-18T00:35:00.002+08:00

BE CONTENTED WITH WHAT YOU HAVE,

I'm stuck with holiday homework , have been slacking for th past few days .
WAKE UP ! BUCK UP ! must focus !
told myself to be contented with wht i have this few days ,
shall stop asking for more and just cherish wht i have now ,
my family and friends and those special ones :D
Although i rlly need to go shop for clothes!!!!!!!
but i must finish my hwk first. completed e.lit hwk so far,
th rest are all just started -.-
shall finish up e.maths or econs tmrw. tmrw shall be a day of no distractions for me .

my sister painted my nails , but she paint like 8 fingers only and she gave up. PINK . but quite messy .
rlly want to go out and have some fun . cuz this holiday didn't rlly get to catch up with friends at all !
plus i can't eat buffet anymore due to my weak gastric.
and i no longer need to go back for check-ups @NUH ! YIPEEE. (:

shall go sleep now, tmr will another hectic day for me .. BYEBYE .

2010-05-25T22:54:00.004+08:00

i hate stories with sad endings,

didn't knw why i was so emotional this few days, and i totally broke down as i read 'th last song' urghh, nicholas sparks, can't you write some happy endings? I feel so stupid crying alone. I think i'm going crazy. Lost control, shucks. I'm getting paranoid this few days, been thinking through lots of things, and th more i think, th more scared i am. At this rate, i will go mad someday. ): bt thr's nothing i can do.

2010-05-21T19:23:00.000+08:00

Chi intensive,
super sick of doing chi paper 1&2 ,
try doing them all day long .
& thr's still like 10 more sets to go.
omg. i'm running out of ideas to write for compo.
but i'll jiayou cuz peishan ask me to (:

2010-05-16T15:54:00.000+08:00

hello ,
i'm back again. my papers ended on Friday, like finally.
But i dread getting th results on Monday cuz i didn't revise much for this papers,
and even got hospitalised just aggravate th situation. shucks, i totally dread monday.
I WANNA ESCAPE FROM ALL THIS CRAP.
it's a sunday yet i'm stuck @ home rotting with chi hwk , GREAT .
& i didn't have th paper 2 plus no one's willing to lend.
i shall complete paper one and leave it at it is . i don't have any energy left .
totally exhausted mentally. ugh, i hate being weak.

2010-05-11T10:29:00.002+08:00

BACK.

Was admitted into hospital on sat .
i think i scare seemin , was suppose to go study with her but in th end nvr .
SO SORRY.
After tht was send to A&E, took blood test & x-ray.
th blood test was freaking painful ,
th nurse kept squezzing my hand until it was numb and she spilled some of my blood.
then she say not enough and went to take blood from another hand , i nearly faint lor .
& i waited for like freaking 3+ hrs for a bed .
and then th doc say he suspect it might be appendicitis.
then got warded @ ard 4?..
after th doc say no food and water in case i need to go for op ):
plus th previous day i dint eat dinner.
then they put me on drip . ard dinner time was sent for ultrasound .
aft was sent back to ward.
could like finally bathe , but got th irritating tube attached to my hand ,
so i could only bathe with one hand, and i took ages to wash my hair.
changed into th super oversized hospital clothes, they're greeen.(abi would like it).
and then my parents left, but baby stayed to accompany me.
then i was super thirsty & hungry, but still they refuse to give me food.
tried to watch tv with my dad's phone bt th reception was super bad, then gave up after awhile .
talked with baby instead. ard midnight i fall asleep.
BUT i kept sleep and wake , sleep and wake.
super uncomfortable with all th kids crying. when one stop, another start .
(im th oldest there.)
and th irritating tube attached to my hand is super painful .
plus th drip was super slow which make it worse.
sometimes,i tug @ th tube cuz i got th sudden urge to pull it out.
But before i could, baby would pull my hand away and give me a stern look :o

Second day:
woke up @ 6 , cuz it was bright and i thought it was like 10+ ?
baby was still asleep .
msg jiayi to chat .
sat at my bedside and look @ th nurse walking in and out. request for th nurse to take out th tube cuz i need th toilet. super irritating cuz have to fix back.
aft tht alot of ppl woke up, they had breakfast & i realise i had lived without food and water for like 40+ hrs,
super hungry but th tag says nothing by mouth so they refuse to give me food.
th lil boy opposite me still eat lollipop lor! i had like 4 bags of fluid through th tube,
it gives me energy bt i'm still hungry.. ):
thn baby woke up. he went home to bathe .
msg jiayi to chat.
i was alone when th doc came for another checkup,
he said he'll let me eat. but th nurse take forever to give me a glass of water.
my parents came and they ask from th nurse agn .
got one super nice nurse gave me hot milo and biscuit .
then lunch came, my sister finish half for me cuz i was full .
bathe and th tube connected to my hand was stuck, th nurse use some tool to pull it out.
super painful , and th nurse say not painful ): cuz not her hand ma !
huijia called crying ,scare th hell out of me . she thought something happen to me x,x
and baby came .
then aft slept agn , but kept waking..
ard evening doc came and said i could be discharged.
had dinner, fish and chip bt it was tasteless and soggy X.X
th blood test says i've infection ( bt dontknw wht) , then th other tests says i'm ok,
so th doc just discharge and gave me panadol -.-
so ard night i reach home , bathe and slept .

so this two days i didnt go for school , was @ home resting .
and i lost 2 kg i think. plus i could not eat much.
TADA , end of story.
i want to thank those who are so concern about me( jiayi, huijia, wanfeng , alison , jonathan, yansin,seemin, xuanjun & abi)

CONCLUSION: I GOT POKE FOR BLOOD TEST AND FREAKING STAYED IN TH HOSP. FOR 2 DAYS, WITHOUT FOOD & WATER , FOR NOTHING CUZ TH DOC DONTKNW WHTS WRONG WITH ME . -.-

2010-05-06T22:39:00.000+08:00

this is th first time i'm entertaining thoughts of dying. I find my life meaningless. Just let me burn in hell, maybe i'll be better off there. Argh, i hate myself for screwing things up. Family and studies. i feel like stabbing myself with a knife, and end this pathetic life.

Gastric pain@ this point of time.

2010-05-01T13:41:00.001+08:00

AS YOU WISHED.

maybe you're right . i'm better off without this friendship .
i'll get over it like how you want me out of your life.

urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

2010-04-25T15:33:00.004+08:00

Mixed feelings.

You're wrong. every single friend of mine is important. no matter how different we are.
You could think our friendship's not important, but deep down in my heart, i know it matters, alot.

I really dontwant to lose a friend, cuz it's always hard to say goodbye.. there's always a chance, to start anew. Why can't we?

2010-04-24T14:58:00.003+08:00

i'm happy now, what about you?

i think i lost you, a very important friend.
Maybe you thought i'm perfectly fine with it, but you're wrong. Cuz it will never be th same.
Even th way we talk, it seems so awkward.
But no matter wht, i really hope it's not th end of our friendship.

2010-04-15T19:56:00.002+08:00

#181 post,

felt guilty after reading someone's blog,
i never knew i did so much damage to ________,
omggggggggggggggg, ihatemyself ):

and i join twitter recently,
still didn't figure out how to use ,
but cant spend much time exploring ,
shld go study amath now , byebye ^^

2010-04-11T19:50:00.001+08:00

jiayi asked me to update, but i've got nothing much to post. ): my sister just scolded me for not knwing how to iron clothes. felt stupid. maybe i'm really tht useless. >< maybe i shld learn how to cook, wash , iron someday..

2010-03-25T23:15:00.001+08:00

hah, i'm blogging with my phone when i'm sitting infront of th computer. And my phone's gng crazzzyyyyyyyy! Tmr crosscountry. Got to go draw two pictures then off to sleep. Bye! (:

2010-02-19T20:19:00.000+08:00

I'm back .
Basically this week is CNY so only went school for 3 days ,
but this three days is still as tiring as one week of school :\
Just now happen to chance upon someone's facebook and i saw a huge STICH as dp!
It's super cute ,
I wish i could get one :(

This weekend is going to be a busy one since i have lotsx of things to do :
-Visiting , homework , filing etc.
OMG ! I wish time can stop just for one day. Just one ):

off to rest, bye ^^

2010-02-12T20:55:00.000+08:00

F***,
i never check my mails.
And i found out today i won a GV online lucky draw.
But i could not redeem th price because th dateline is long over.
#$#^$%*%&^$%$*,
I AM AN IDIOT.
i feel like screaming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's like my hopes are dashed.
Nevermind , no one will understand how i feel .
It sucks.

Stupid ME,

2010-02-06T19:16:00.002+08:00

Thursday

Went to school , Had a workshop about resilience.

The class was split into two .

I was in ms.ng's group.

She shared with us her story. Felt sorry for her.

After that had th buffet , didn't feel like eating but was forced to.

Was released early.

Went to Kbox with Yongyong , abigail and cryst.

The photos are on Fb.

Had a very fun time and went home late.

Friday

Home>School>Somerset>Bugis>Home.

Ytd had amazing race in school.

It was very fun with so many stations.

Everyone tried their best and we got 1st.

Although I've got some scratches from the game, i still enjoy myself very much.

Cos i could only blame myself for being so unlucky to stand beside __________.

We were released early .

After school , train to Somerset with Abigail,Xuanjun,Cryst&Jenny.

Ate lunch @ 313 .

Then went to the MRT station to wait for Fangzhou and Mr.Heng.

After that went to th Youth Center?

They had a CIP meeting there.

Then Abi,Jenny & me went off to bugis to shop :D

Bought some clothes and then Cryst & Xuanjun join us .
Saw wanfeng & Huijia!!!!

Shop some more till around 7 then bus home.

I bought 4 apparels ! A bit too much ><

Train to JP , but was stuck @ th interchange.

I waited for half an hour for 243 !

Finally reached home @ 9 .

Today

Went for tuition in the morning then went to get lunch .

Spent the whole day at home doing nothing .

Going to revise and do homework ltr. :X

ThankYou.
-Seemin for typing long such a long msg without shortform. (:
-Jiaming for cheering me up this few days. (:

2010-01-31T15:13:00.000+08:00

Yesturday was FUN !
Saw Jiayi , wanfeng and huijia .
Went to Seoul garden with a bunch of friends-yonyong,kohsiong, weiting, kenneth.
The ppl there refuse to give us two tables so we end up squezzing into a four pax table .
Five ppl sharing one small table. ):
Crap and ate alot. But it was expensive. Reach home around midnight.
But i think i ate too much , my throat hurts :X

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Had tuition just now,
now waiting for my sister to end her lesson and we'll bus home tgt .

Ok . nothing much to say alrdy , bye .

2010-01-23T19:21:00.000+08:00

Amiration:
When the world becomes silent, you're the voice.

Crush:
When our lips touch , the world froze.

Love:
Three words is enough.

-Abigail.

Abigail asked me to post this , HAHA.
She wrote in on my worksheet. :D
BOOO , she say it's her misfortune to sit with me during lit lesson.

This two week have been a hectic week.
i'm deprived of sleep !!!
And i'm sick for two consecutive week ):

2010-01-09T14:22:00.000+08:00

i still can't believe i'm sec 4 alrdy. Time pass really quickly .
I'm having my o'level this year and i'm passing out of band in few months time.
And all this doesn't feel real to me at all .

I don't feel like starting revision even though i know that time is running out .
& i gave up halfway trying to finish my homework .
I don't know what i want . I'm lost .

2010-01-01T10:43:00.000+08:00

Happy new year !
although it's not going to be a good year for me .

My new year resolution : Good results , as usual .

Shall blog about what i've did this week .
-Sunday , went out with the girls to orchard .
& the things there were super expensive , so could only buy few things.
-Monday, Band
-Tuesday, Band
-Wednesday, Band
-Thursday, grp study with jiayi , wanfeng , shingyee & brenda
-Friday , that's today , stay home and finish remaining homwork ..

& finally tomorrow - going out with huijia to finish HOMEWORK AGAIN .

2009-12-12T00:20:00.000+08:00

Monday
-2H class gathering @ ken's hse .
I reach there around 5, i think.
But had to leave before th bbq starts.
Daddy&mommy accompany me to lot 1 to get my pay.
Had subway for dinner (:
Then went back home to bath and went to gek poh to meet jiayi at ard 11pm .
& my phone went flat when jiayi called me .
Manage to meet her while roaming around , she thought something happen to me ><
Went to ken'se hse .
Some went home , while other stayed .
There wasn't much room inside kenneth's room so i went to th living room to watch tele with th rest .
But fall asleep during th second movie @ ard 5am ,
Slept on th couch , it was super uncomfortable.
woke up @ 10.30am and seah cheng & co . went to mac to buy breakfast.
I wanted to sleep somemore so i ask them to help me buy .

Tuesday
Aft eating breakfast ,
some of them went into th room to watch videos or sleep ,
seah cheng & kenneth was playing some video games in th living room.
i had nothing to do so i watch them play.
It was pretty boring for me cuz i didn't understand what they were doing .
So i entertain myself by looking out of th window and staring into empty space.
Manage to learn some basics of piano :P
Went home around 6 for dinner.

Wednesday, Thursday, Friday.
Did some homework,
But surf th net most of th time :/

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I need to go out to complete my homework ,
anyone want to accompany me ?
I can't concentrate @ home & i don't know how to do .

Changed blogskin.

2009-12-11T14:41:00.000+08:00

Hello. Ahwen here to help this pig post. tsktsk. she keep want me to help her change blogskin. woi pig, if you still dont update, im so gonna mess up your blog k! post your unglam picture k! :b faster add in th rest and update! rah.

Stop watching ISWAK! you're gonna get addicted to it! still say me. you also haven't do your hw okay! faster go eat lunch with me! im starving!!

2009-11-30T15:27:00.000+08:00

Maybe you're right .
And we should not even be friends .
I can't figure out what you're thinking .
Sometimes, we are friends , and sometimes we are not .
I said hello ,
but you said goodbye .
If this is what you want .

Goodbye ,

2009-11-26T14:20:00.000+08:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGGG.

I haven't finish my homework -.-

Monday
BAND .

Tuesday
Went out with seemin twinny .
went to bugis and played in th kiddy arcade.
But sort of neglected her when i went to work .
So sorry.
i promise i'll not do it again th next time we go out .

Wednesday
BAND & WORK.

Thursday
i promise to bake cookies with huijia tonight .
but i can't make it cuz i have to work again .
Got to report @ 5.30 ltr .

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bye .

2009-11-15T21:29:00.002+08:00

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

Tuition & Lessons everyday, as usual .
My phone is experiencing some connection problem.
I have to restart the phone to send ONE msg , & it's so frustrating trying to msg someone.
Stupid phone , guess i've to switch back to my samsung phone.

I'm very bored @ home .
I've nothing to do except sleep , eat and study .
I need to endure three more days of school !!
All my friends in other schools are having their holidays already .. ><

I want to go out desperately. With my friends .

2009-10-27T21:40:00.002+08:00

I like this picture :)

2009-10-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

School ends @ 1pm this week :D
But i've got extra 3 weeks of lesson.
I dread going to school everyday .
The same routine repeated many times , again & again .
The only thing i could look forward to was friends.
At least i don't need to worry much about exams, since they're over and i've flunk them .
& the overall wasn't out yet. So i don't want to think whether i need to drop my sciences .

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzboredom.

Was planning to go out with wf , hj to sing.
But was cancelled due to some reasons.
& i spent th afternoon sleeping and watching TV .
I've th strong urge to learn to play th piano .
But someone's not free to teach ):
Urgghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
I need to find something to keep myself occupied.
Reading a book no longer keep me busy .
Maybe start doing my chineses holiday assignment - book review.
But i need to go find a chinese book , something tht is interesting .
Which is like so hard. Chinese books were never appealing to me ><
& because of my EOY results , i've lost interest in it.
I guess i just need to live with what i have , be contented.

BYE .

2009-10-23T21:58:00.000+08:00

HEADACHE, OUCH.

Didn't went for band because i had a very bad headache.
Sleep for the whole day , i feel like a pig.
Eat&sleep all day long .

Didn't want to comment on my results(esp. *******)
I guess no use crying over spilled milk .
i feel like shouting all th vulgarites i know #$#%^$&%^&

Xuanjun's birthday.
We went to MARINA BARRAGE.
it was super fun & windy.
Everyone wore a dress . i think i'm never gng to wear one again .
SUPER HIDEOUS. (over-sized barbie doll)
abigail and crystal posted th pictures on fb .
went to swensen @ night with them.
could not finish my food cuz i wasn't feeling well.
Jiayi and qiuyun were so worried. (thanks eh , my friends)

RP
Help with wanfeng's group .
since my responsible grp leader didn't sent in th proposal and even lied tht it was rejected.
so disgusted with his action.
Wanfeng's business was good.
they made a profit .
It was really busy , whole morning trying to write words on rice grain .
I hope their grp member don't mind me .
i was just helping since i have nothing to do there.

I'm super bored now .
went out for dinner just now and rent some movie to watch .
i think i'm not sleeping tonight.
going to watch non-stop later. :D

Off to help my sister with something ,
BYE ^^

2009-10-19T01:13:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday XUANJUN!
i missed sitting beside you & you doodling on my handbook .
Stay cute and prettty uh !

On friday ,
went to watch 500 days of summer with jiayi & co.
The movie was funny .
The guy was so obsessed with love , believing love@ first sight exist ,
while tht girl could think tht love doesn't exist .
& there was th _____ game.
walk around orchard and have dinner there.

On sat,
went to CCK to look for gineau pigs .
Mom is gng to get one for sister.
Shld be getting it next week since they are still breeding them .

YTD,
went to Chinatown w/ DACSR,CLWL,LXJ.
crap and took photo there.
Saw the character , DARAH ! She seriously scare th hell out of me and xuanjun.
One of th most gruesome characters i ever seen .
The fork with th finger on it & bloodstains on her body ,
i'm going to get nightmares T.T
Bus-ed home .

Today's xuanjun's birthday,
they're going to celebrate ltr.
Hope i wake up in time .
Off to sleep ,
NIGHTNIGHT.

2009-10-14T21:41:00.001+08:00

tmr's th last paper !

like finally my exams are over.
if it doesn't end soon , i'm going to die .
i'm pretty sure i flunk everything.
& last week i hit my finger against th wall,
i didn't do it on purpose . just being clumsy.
and it hurts like shit . haven't recover yet ):
i'm given extra time(1day) to write but i still can't finish my paper ><

today's oral suck .
i seriously screw it up ,
either i read too fast or pronounce th words wrongly .
and th conversation part .. i just hope i'll pass .

i've been having nightmares and sleepless nights recently .
if this goes on, i'm going to collapse.

exams are over,
someone promise me to teach me piano :D

2009-09-18T18:34:00.013+08:00

I SERIOUSLY NEED TO SLEEP .

A tiring week,
There's as many as 3 test in one day.
I fall asleep in class today during Literature and was caught ,
so embarassing :/ but Ms. Lee's voice really sound like lullaby when you're really tired.
I've been sleeping past midnight this whole week and i feel like i'm about to collapse anytime.
But no use studying till so late ,
i could not finish my SS paper,
don't know what the hell i was writing in physic ,
and don't know what i was doing during a.math paper.
SHIT .
i'm such a goner.

Ms. ZhangYi treat us ice-cream during chinese lesson . she said it was relevant to th lesson :D
She lied to us that there was a sweet in one of th tub of ice-cream .
The one who got it will get a present.
Everyone believe and search for it in th ice-cream.
But it turn out to be a lie .
Then she questioned us : Why did we always believe in what teachers say?
Meaningful right ?

Ytd went for th forensic conference(?) @ NgeeAnn poly .
Quite interesting although don't understand much cuz one of th lecturer use too many scientific terms.
The talk was ok , but most of th pictures were bloody ,
i couldn't take it so i had to hide , luckily i didn't pass out or vomit .
i simply can't stand the sight of blood ><

This coming monday would be a holiday .
Didn't really plan what to do .
But most likely to revise for th upcoming EOYs.
Although i will procrastinate and learn nothing .
I think Daddy's going to ban me from th computer from next week till EOYs are over ):

Sometimes you shld let go or it'll hurt.
i don't deserve you.

2009-09-12T19:46:00.001+08:00

Ytd went to school for lessons in the morning.
In the afternoon , went out with 3I & 3H + 2 tchers for movie.
watch 'The Time Traveler's Wife, quite confusing but it was ok .
Then went to repair my specs so didn't get to go to SC's birthday celebration .
Now, i realised how important my specs are.
i forgot to bring my spare specs out so i had to walk home w/o specs.
luckily , i didn't fall.
But everytime i turn around to get something , i'll hit my head -.-

Got back my specs today .
I can do my homework but i'm not in th mood :/
holiday is ending and i haven't even touch my homework ,
shit .

plus i'm lazy to relink ppl .
will do it next time .
off to do online assignment ,

SHIT .

2009-09-04T20:45:00.000+08:00

Times fly and EYEs just round th corner.
OMG ..
i've just realised how fast time pass.
Got back term 3 result .
Don't knw shld be happy or sad .
yeah , i improved but i failed A.math again.
After studying so hard for it . Was really sad about it . Cried like a baby .
Stupid me , i'm already fifteen . But i really put in effort .
It's th first time i stay up rlly late to study for one subject .
But all i got was disappointment . Maybe i shld really give up .
I know it's stupid cuz i've alrdy study for one year.
But i'm sick of feeling disppointed time and time again .
I went for tuition twice a week , study past midnight for it , ask lots of friends for help .
All i got in return was a fking D7 !
Hell , i'm going crazy .

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RLLY want to go out with friends and forget about th damn result .
BUT holiday fully booked by teachers for lessons !
PLUS tuitions (4sub in 1 week).
& i still need to find time to go out with SJ .
& there's lots of homework for me to clear,
i swear i'll clear them by this sunday ,
i must stop procrastinating !

2009-08-28T22:02:00.000+08:00

Thanks to those who wish me happy birthday and belated birthday ! :D

It's th thought tht counts :)
This year's birthday was great .
Jiayi plan a surprise for me , six people - Jiayi,Abigail,Wanfeng,Xuanjun,Qiuyun&Kenneth
came to my hse with cake, presents and a helium balloon .
I was so surprised to see them standing outside my hse .
My mother open th door and got a shock to see so many people standing outside.
They were all so shocked cuz they haven't prepared and asked my mom to close th door.
Jiayi thought i would cry cuz i'm touched , but i didn't :P
She's disapppointed tht i didn't cry . i'll cry next yr k ? :P
They came into my hse and ate th cake .
We chat for awhile and they havd to go cuz i have tuition .

Went for tuition .
Crazy ZhongCai and KaiAn ran to Jp from bukit batok to buy me a present.
But it's really nice of them to do tht .
they bought me cookie monster i think ? Quite big one .
But it look kind of scary cuz it's very blue and have long legs and hands .
they thought it would make me laugh , but it scares me instead :D

Thanks to everyone who gave me presents .
Shall not mention name or it'll be a long list :P
I'm fifteen already !
I shall forget all about th unhappy moments in my past 15 yrs, look on th bright side and smile more like wht xuanjun says on her blog .
like jiayi said , life is't going to be smooth-sailing.
It's great to know i've friends to support me .
i've got pictures , bt i guess i'll upload next time .

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Ytd , last NYAA lesson in th library ,
kind of sad . No more dancing in th hall for hours.
But there's another streetdance workshop during th september holiday.
And two more lessons on ballroom dance.

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Today ,
went home straight after school .
Walk past seven-eleven and my sister bought me Hershey's chocolate :D
Then Daddy brought me and sister to see th doctor .
Stupid smelly medicine again ! ):
Ate lunch , then homed.

Going for Rachel's birthday celebration tomorrow :D

Are dreams th opposite of reality ? :<

2009-08-20T18:06:00.000+08:00

omggz .
my blogger and facebook are having problems .
everything is so messy!
& my internet is lagging like nobody's business.

this week is th common test week .
have been sleeping for less than 5 hrs a day ,
i didn't know how i did i manage not to KO and study at th same time .
omggg . i'm so looking forward to th weekend so i could finally rest !
anw , i dont think i'll pass any of th test even after studying for hours ):

for th first time , i'm not looking forward to 23aug .
i guess i've not forgive and forget.

i was randomly clicking on links and i chance upon my cousin's blog ,
like so many years never see her le.
and she link me , but i didn't know :O

abigail was playing with her stamp this morning .
it've a paw print and her name .
& she and Qiuyun stamp it on my hand .
then she took out a pen and write ('s)
so now there is a chop on my hand with words- abigail's
i tried to rub in off before phy exam in case th tcher though i was cheating .
i dont think will get caught ba ,
there's nothing in physic called abigail .
bt we made a joke - wht's th formula for moment ?
-Abigail(N) x abigail(M)!
just being random .

my sister help me change blogskin , but she haven't send me th code.
will change it ltr . (:

2009-07-16T19:50:00.002+08:00

Update :D

ANG QIU YUN asked me to blog ,
so here i am.
Nothing much happen , like usual.
everyday is homework , homework & homework.
i can only sleep after 1 in th morning becuz i have to do my hwk.
& there's nothing to post cuz i live a boring life -.-

i found out tht i've got a cut on my wrist when i'm doing a.math test.
didn't know how i got it . papercut ?
then fall asleep during phy . i tried to stay awake but failed.
this is like the 100000000001th time i sleep in class.

i'm going to play badminton tmr ,
with abigail, wanfeng, jiayi , huijia and some more ppl i think?
shld try to get some photos and post them.

i won't go running back to the past.
cuz i don'twant to hurt you anymore.

2009-06-22T21:55:00.002+08:00

i'm here to update since someone ask me to .

nothing much happen this few days,
partly because i'm sleeping & doing nothing everyday.
& this result to a heap of hwk untouch-ed.
i'm going to finish my hwk this week ,
so i don't think i will online(facebook/plurk/MSN) so often
(&partly becuz my dad ban me from computer bcuz i haven't finish my hwk)

&boy. i'm sorry ,
i'm not good enough for you.

2009-06-11T21:37:00.003+08:00

BACK.

I've survived th plane ride.
Unfortunately, i dropped my thermometer on th plane .

i've sort of adapted to th weather at perth.
now , i find singapore super hot ! ):
Th trip was okkay except th cold cold weather& _________.

-----

came back from partyworld just now ,
went with seahcheng , andy , krsyt & keilin .
super fun when they were singing , almost like shouting.
then went to th interchange , &chat abit there.
about relationship problems.

Relationship problem is super complicated.
i am going to focus on studies now.
& i need time to heal .
a long time .
i don't want to get stuck in my little box anymore.

2009-06-03T23:00:00.005+08:00

AWAY TILL 11JUNE.

I'll be missing for arnd 7 days ,
yeah .
er , try not to msg me unless you want a hole in your pocket.
i don't think it's gng to be cheap to sent oversea msg to perth ,
that's all .
byebye.

blogger.com:
can't you tell me who you are?
it's bugging me .
i'm really very curious .
maybe it's not time for you to expose your identity.
i'll wait for you to drop your mask .

2009-06-02T20:44:00.002+08:00

went to bugis tdy to buy pants for th perth trip .
it cost me 32 dollars ! ):
luckily i've got devil to go with me .
&then train back to Jp to shop for her wallet.
saw kryst & co ,
& then rachel & co .
&then home ,

tmr there's band , but mommy don't want me to go .
2moredaystoperthtrip.

3slaps,
it woke me up.

2009-05-30T22:29:00.002+08:00

i'm posting agn becuz i'm bored.
mommy quarrel with my sister agn ,
& they both went into their room ,
leavng me alone in th living room ):
i'm so bored.
wht's wrong with everyone ?
now my home is so empty.
everyday is filled with quarrels .
can't have peace .
i rlly hope i could be useful for abit ,
just this once .

my life is so screwed up,
why did i came to this world to bring sufferings to others ?

2009-05-22T22:01:00.002+08:00

Wednesday
had my last paper & went to Jp to have lunch/breakfast .
awlk arnd & get hujia'a present.
went east coast with big 7 :D
cycled , took photos .
then arnd 7+ walk back to th bus station to bus back bedok,
unfortunately , we end up lost , cuz we couldn't find th bus-stop.
a kind ladyy help us find our way to Eunos Mrt stn .
trained to Jp , had dinner.
walk arnd for abit & went home .

Thursday
went with rach, jiayi, huijia, abigail to purchase clothes for perth trip .
went far-east , wisma atria, bugis , OG .
super tired.
went to Jp to have dinner then bused home again .

Friday
went to school in th morning for briefing,
went home .
went out agn with yongyong , ken , daniel , kohsiong & weiting for lunch & seoul garden .
had alot of fun there.
then walk around causeway point .
& th fire broke out .
got th smell of smoke .
i thought it was me cuz we smell like burned meat & tomyam soup after eating .
then saw alot of people coming down th escalator .
trained back to Jp .
walk around with yongyong ,
then went for th flu vaccine with her .
super pain !!
me & yongyong was freaking out before our no. was called.
& tht thing was super ex & those ppl there was super unfriendly ):
& now my arm is freaking sore.

i'm spending so much money this few days ,
if th trip is cancelled, i'll swear like shit .

2009-05-14T16:25:00.004+08:00

closing my blog soon . it's so dead.
MYE going on now .
so many things to do after MYE .
i've promised to go out with devil .
it seems like she got a new clique and she's very happy now.
i hope she don't forget about me.
miss her like crazy & she's so lucky that her papers have ended.
it took her one week .
& when her papers end, mine started -.-
and it will only end next week (wed) ,
6 MORE PAPERS TO GO.

ytd .
went to seah cheng's hse with abigail & co .
watch movie ,
was late for dinner with famliy .
reach home around 7+ .
ate dinner alone as punishment .

stupid computer.
it went crazy and del everything .
my photos and songs , etc gone .
and it's lagging like nobody's business .
i wish i could get a laptop .
but daddy say i don't need it now .
i think i'll go crazy soon with this shitty computer.

off to study for SS paper tmr ,

2009-04-25T15:42:00.003+08:00

i'm blogging cuz i'm super bored.

train to lavender ytd to collect new passport.
th photo suck , cuz it was scanned by my lousy printer at home,
bt at least it's better than th rest of my fanily members.
saw kohsiong there, haha.
everyone's renewing their passport (:
then train back to jurong point.
daddy&mummy bought a new school bag for me :D
cost 39+ dollar !
mummy also bought a set of comic at 60+ dollars .
i pester her to buy tht set of comic then lend me read =p

need to revise ltr ,
& there's tuition tmr .

i'm back again .

2009-04-11T00:23:00.007+08:00

forget th past , concentrate on th future (:

ytd was cross-country ,
super tiring .
after that went IMM to eat,
crap alot during dinner with jiayi , wanfeng & huijia.

since it's good friday tdy,
went out with girlfriends & *SOME GUYS(: tdy (:
super funn .
we meet in th morning and train to town .
walk around , window-shopping =p
everyone leg was like jelly cuz we walked for hours.
but it was fun walking around ..
i've never been to some of th places i visited tdy !
after tht train bk to JP .
saw ABIGAIL! :D
walk around somemore.
bought dinner and bus-ed back with jiayi (:

rachel sent me th photos taken tdy :

*not in order (:

2009-03-16T17:30:00.008+08:00

this is specially for benji (:

you have no freaking rights to criticise my mother.
this two BIG words is for you :
FUCK OFF ,
not happy with me ,don't view my blog.
i didn't beg you to view it.
not happy ? FIND ME .

i jolly well know what i'm doing .
& like what you want , i already broke up with him.
HAPPY ? NOW GET LOST (:
stop pushing all the blame to me .
i'm not the only one who need to put in the effort to keep this "relationship" going .
where was he when i needed him? in camp .
yeah, i know he can't come out even if he wanted .
but yeah , why should i find time for him when i'm really busy and tired?
I aint a god, i need to rest or else i will collapse .
get your facts right before coming here.
& if he wanted to break , why didn't he say so earlier ?
why must wait for me to say it ?
oh please, SHOOO.
i know i ain't your friend so you don't need to care about me .
I'M ALSO A HUMAN.

i don't give a damn to losers like you .
you're the one who is over-protecting your friend :)

whoever u think:
you're right. this is my blog . i choose what i want to say & hear. thanks(:

2009-03-14T19:10:00.003+08:00

this is th first time i'm not looking forward to th holidays.
cuz i know i won't get to enjoy it.
my life is so messed up now .
failed my pure physic(F9) like shittt.
& my term 1 result sucks like nobody's business.
super short post .
i've nothing to say .

byeebyee .

benji- -.- i didn't spread. it's not a glam thing anw. why are you so concerned?

123.

2009-03-10T22:39:00.003+08:00

i hope someone could understand how i feel.

tons of hwk ,
accumulate from past days :/
i should have cleared them sooner,
now i really don't have th time to complete them .
& i'm here bloggin , instead of using my time wisely .
&&i'm super pissed at something now )))))))))):
shall not say what it is , i just have to find a solution myself.
byeebyee ,

i'm void of all emotions.

2009-03-09T22:50:00.003+08:00

things will be alright soon , i hope.

Super busy nowadays .
won't online so often .
didn't even have enough time to complete hwk :/
went swimming ytdd .
so funnnn , it's been ages since i've go out with my friends ,
NYAA start le , so funn partner-ing jiayi . (:
i've got the guy part =p
band was tiring like usual , but i'm used to it.

lemongrass: used your name please . i won't know who you are if you don't . & i don't have a single idea what you're talking about . want clarify with me ?

maybe it's time to face up to reality .

2009-02-24T23:08:00.002+08:00

MIA for th next 3 days.

i'm going to MIA in th next three days becoz of sec three adventure camp.
just finished packing , have everything except sunbloc lotion .
think i will come back very very tan.
& i realised i need to bring two big bag !
they are seriously big .
i wonder if i have enough space to put them tmr!
i look like someone escaping to somewhere.
it's super wierd .
it's just a three day two night camp & i end up bring 6 shirts & 5 shorts !
): th two bag is super heavy .

i wish i caught a cold while walking in th rain tdy .
then tmr no need to report.
my ez-link ran out of money so had to walk (forget to bring umbrella).
it's kinda fun walking in th rain , like i was relieved of all burden .

so many things have happened ,
i've lost faith .

2009-02-20T22:45:00.002+08:00

finally this week is coming to an end .
i haven't been sleeping well these few days,
thanks to all th exams .
finally i'm left with few more test before i'm finally free!
free from test but not torture.
sec three adventure camp coming soon ):
in a few days time ,
& i aint looking forward to it . i didnt start preparing yet.
i think i'll do last minute packing . i wish i could get some illness and skip it .
it's no fun sleeping in sleeping bags with insects around you . at least to me .

i got back my chemistry CT result .
i've passed so i'm quite happy about it .
i know i'm not supposed to be contented.
but it's at least better than my phy ,
i've prepared to score a big fat 0 for it since i have no idea what i have wrote in th paper.
and we've been informed that 3/4 of th class didnt make it .
i'll be happy if i score more than one mark .
afterall i once scored two marks for one of my sec two phy test (:

band tdy was fine .
sectional like usual with joke and stuff ?
but surprisingly we did practice alot .
till my lips went numb ><
maybe it was because someone was there monitoring us (:

there's band x-change tmr ,
i wanted to meet sijia aft that,
but that pretty girl is busy with her cca carnival so i'll have to wait .
maybe next week or what then can meet her ):
i need to see her badly.
miss her loads.

shall continue with my mountain of hwk ,
byeebyee(:

2009-02-19T20:38:00.005+08:00

backkkkkk (:
like finally i've the time and energy to blog .
i swear i could sleep for 24 hrs and still feel tired.
i'm sleeping less than 4 hours a day & trying my best not to sleep in class .

valentine's day .
thanks to all people who gave me v.gifts !
ii love them very much !!
went out with sijia ,
now she's not free to accompany me agn):

finally phy & chem test are over.
i think i could pass my chemistry , i did study hard for it .
but not my physic . i'll be happy if i didn't get mre than 0 cuz i leave the last page empty !
i'm totally clueless on what to write ;
th test was so freaking difficult, or was it me who was stupid?
i totally screw it (:
no use crying over spilled milk ehh .
huijia came to my hse tdy ,
had some girl's talk (((((:

this week's ending soon .
th sec 3 adventure camp i've been dreading for is coming soon ! )):
& i haven't prepare for it .
lack of : shoe , track pants & insect repellent .

2009-02-13T00:56:00.003+08:00

i know i'm wierd.
blogging in the middle of th night.

i've failed my A.maths test (:
expected. so i'm not feeling sad.
currently doing JBC , and preparing v present for th girls .
i've been working on them for nights & i still can't finish !
tmr's gonna be a tiring day since cca will only ennd at 10pm++ ,
and i'm getting less than five hours of sleep a day .
wish me luckk .

off to work on JBC ,
th notes just sucks ,
and th music scales are making me giddy x.x

2009-02-10T21:00:00.003+08:00

teehee ,
i passed my chinese and economics (:
so far i failed my phyisc only .

school's damn tiring .
& i miss 2H very much .
rushed to daiso to buy some materials for valentine day present.
cost a bomb.
& i need to go again cuz i didn't buy enough ):

well , updated. (:
byebye .

taqq replied & links are link-ed (:

this just suck

2009-02-05T17:03:00.003+08:00

i'm updating .
i've failed my PHYSIC.
i used to score quite well for it .
at least it's better than my chemistry last time .
but now it's th opposite.
i did okkay for my chem but not my physic !@
why can't i do okk for both?!

today's chemistry quiz,
i don't know what i write.

&yes, i think i failed my economics,
how great ehh !
i got 4 correct only in 8 MCQS,
and th structured part , i'm absolutely sure i flunk it.

GREAT, i didn't have enough time to complete my mother tongue paper today.
so i'm sure i won't score so well for it ,
maybe i'll fail like other subjects.

A.math test today.
didn't know what to say.
although have tuition , but it doesn't guarrantee a pass.
& those answer i came out with don't look convincing.
i didn't finish th paper as usual.

the only thing i can be happy about :
i passed my e.math test (indices) with 22/30

but what's th use of passing one test out of so many ?

plus i injured my finger so i can't play during band .
i sat there like an idiot for a full 3 hours ytd.

this just suck.

back(:

2009-02-01T22:05:00.002+08:00

i'm back.
finally open my blog agn .
but i think i won't update so often .
there's so many hwk .
i think i'll update once a week.
thanks to my sister who help me with th blogskin.
i was too busy to find one .

update next time,
off to study for tmr's test.

i'm transparent.

2008-12-15T21:33:00.003+08:00

today mommy let me go seah cheng's hse for movie .
was late like usual when meeting crystal & andy ><
reach around 1++? i forgot.
watch dead silence . super creepyyyyyy !
i watch abit of th scary part with th help of stich plushie,
after tht , cook maggie mee with andy & crystal .
dont know why end up throwing th noodle in before waiting for th water to boil .
haha ! but it work out in th end. i share with crystal while andy share with seah cheng.
they continued watching saw 3 .
i watch abit & freaked out becuz of th bloody parts.
then fall asleep since i didnt have any interest in tht bloody movie.
wake up around 6++ & th movie was ending .
but didnt . left th last part. & th story ended with everyone dying including th mastermind -.- then chatted till 7.45 pm then left seah cheng's hse .
waited for bus 30 .
bused to jurong point & bused home with andy .
had fun talking to him , he's such a funny guy !
haaha , then now blogging . i'm super boreeedddddddd ! (:

support http://www.shoppingbear-x.blogspot.com/ ! TYVM !

i dread going back to school ,
because i haven't finish my hwk yet ):
i'm a bad girl .
i'm so fine without you in my life.

class chalet funnnnn !

2008-12-13T18:52:00.003+08:00

just come back from class chalet ytd :D
super funnnnnn (:
too much things happen so i'm not gonna write or i will be writing essays alrdy .
just finish maths & eng wksht (:
spent th whole afternoon !
having tuition tmr .

mickey mouse (:

2008-12-10T08:17:00.003+08:00

just went for movie ytd ,
watch bolt with tuition mates (:
th movie was super hilarious .
before th movie , ew went to th arcade & started playing th UFO catcher.
i caught a mickey mouse (:
with three dollars .
but my friend use up all his money playing stacker & UFO catcher.
he wanted to catch th ghost but it keep dropping cuz it's too soft ! :D
then went to buy something drinks in fairprice.
then went for th movie .
after tht bus-ed home & have my dinner with my parents .
--
i dont think i could go for today's chalet anymore
mom doesn't want me to go ,
& both my parents didn't gave me any money .
so TADA . I CAN'T GO.

haircut (:

2008-12-08T19:16:00.003+08:00

today was supposed to be a family day .
daddy wanted to bring us out to east coast to cycle but th weather was bad .
so we stayed at home & sleep instead ):
went to eat dinner &
just went for a haircut ,
tht person who help me cut my hair got th same phone as me (:
mommy paid for it then come home .
i'm going to do my homework later :D
movie @ JP tmr with my tuition mates (:

x.x

2008-12-03T14:42:00.004+08:00

i'm starving .
i didnt eat dinner last night,
i didnt eat breakfast & lunch D:
& i'm too lazy to cook .
well , i think i'll cook before i starve to death
& i cant concentrate on my homework.

789,

2008-12-03T12:31:00.004+08:00

i'm doing hwk now .
since i decided not to waste my whole holiday doing hwk slowly .
jaiyi invite me to her church thingy this saturday ,
i really hope i dont forget about it .
ytd went for dentist appointment
nadia , crystal & xuanjun was there when i reach ,
waited for like 30 mins+ before it was my turn .
my gums are slightly swollen
th dentist ask me whther i want to get braces but i'm scared of pain ><
mom ask me but i dont want to pluck out my teeth ,
& i look wierd with braces . -.-

holiday hwk :
1) eng personal recount ,
2) eng narrative essay ,
3) book review 1 ,
4) book review 2 ,
5) book talk presentation + cue cards ,
6) eng wkst that consist of comprehension & vocab , (stuck at first qn!)
7) write one chinese essay ,
8) mathematics holiday assignment , (halfway done & stuck)
9) chemistry wrkst + mindmap ,
10) physic workbook (left few/alot of qns)

456 ,

2008-11-29T14:30:00.003+08:00

i am stuck at home doing hwk :/
but i didnt do anything yet ,
& i am too lazy to do anything
i need to complete at least one homework before my dad gets home or i'm dead
at least i've read one book before school holiday came so i am left with two books ,
i hope i remember th story line or i need to read again ):

holiday hwk :
1) eng personal recount ,
2) eng narrative essay ,
3) book review 1 ,
4) book review 2 ,
5) book talk presentation + cue cards ,
6) eng wkst that consist of comprehension & vocab ,
7) write one chinese essay ,
8) mathematics holiday assignment , (halfway done)
9) chemistry wrkst + mindmap ,
10) physic workbook (halfway done)

hope i didnt left out anything ,
i plan to finish all these before 1st dec ,
but it's not possible.

123,

2008-11-28T23:05:00.007+08:00

what happen to everyone ? (:
i have some problem with my internet connection :/
its like laggin like nobody's business !
shitttttt D:
band like usual ,
naingoo came back but not aishah ..
well , she got her problems .
went to pizza hut during lunch break ,
then went back for early sectionals but band started early so no time .
i saw th ensemble piece for th first time .
freaking lots of quavers ,if i'm not wrong ):
saddening , i cant tongue so fast & my tonguing seriously sukkkks
tried overture 2 during full band ,
went off early & bused to grandpa's hse .
saw my uncles & aunties there .
waited for my parents there then home &
now i am pissed off because of my internet connection ! urghhhhh !

as i read all my post tht i written in th past , i started to miss those memories with th old you very much.

IIIIIIIIII'MMMM BOOOOOOORRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDD.

2008-11-27T11:47:00.004+08:00

i just woke up & dont feel like doing hwk :/
ytd night went out till 11 ,
mommy wasn't happy about it :p
was walking around with *chickenhead* then chatchat lor .
maybe i shld play audi ,
at least i wont be bored (:
play audition also very bored.
what shld i do ? :/

i'mbeingabadgirlnow):

books&homeworks,

2008-11-25T15:39:00.007+08:00

halfway done with physic & maths .
so damn hard ,
or is it tht i didnt concentrate,
bigbig one & jiaming never online .
no one to talk to except qiuyundear .
she do hwk so fast !
just start ytd & she completed so much .
i started long ago but ..
all i want now is to complete those shitty hwk
& collect my scholarship cert & voucher (:

today morning didnt went for sectionals .
kenneth didnt inform last night ,
he say he help us do punishment .
nevermind luhh .
do jiu do lor . not like never do before (:
went to school to get books ,
saw rongfan&yongjie (:
went to gekpoh to have lunch with daddy then homed

yes,qiuyunsayshebringmeout(:

sorry,ibrokethpromise.itsnotyou,thproblemlieswithme.

crush
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will lastLast forever, forever
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is youYou got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

2008-11-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

i decided to blog since i was bored.
fund raising ytd
i didnt do anything except walking around holding balloons ,
my legs nearly break ,
thanks jiaming for coming to support uhh ! :D
so generous sia , ten dollars lehh !

today have tuition :D
sat with th 'bigbig' one .
maths was okkay .was revising complete th square,
then science was mostly jokes & ionic bonding.
just now chatting with jiaming ,but he was busy ,
now chatting with bigbig one ,
& nothing to do .

iwanttogooutwiththgirlsbuttheyseemstobesobusy.

2008-11-21T18:23:00.005+08:00

hellloooos ,
i am back ! :D
well , alot of couple have been breaking up because of their friends/ex?
well , if you are rlly in love with them , just forgive&forget .
my ex de gf broke up with ex .
i saw my name in her postt because of th friendster feature thingy .
well , its th past so shld cherish present (:
haish ,went to th temple in malaysia .
prayed & got th paper thingy tht predict future ,
mine was bad ?
troubles & everything .
nothing seems to work out fine.
everyone seems to be fine
IMISSTHPAST.
TH PAST WHEN I WAS JUST A NERDY LIL SCHOOL GIRL.

2008-11-14T23:21:00.005+08:00

i will be MIA until next week :D
i am going malaysia so wont be back until thursday :D
--
today , there is band .
jesslyn didnt turn up .
pretty bored,
went to pizza hut during lunch break .
was damn full lor !
i nearly fall asleep during full band ><
~~whats th point of trying hard?~~

sijia went to china today ,
will miss her lots .
i miss twohipsters,
i miss qiuyun dear ,
i miss xuanjunn lover,
i miss seemin twinny ,
i miss all my girlfriends :D

packing bag for my oversea trip now .
so troublesome ! D:
prehaps i am too lazy.

2008-11-12T22:06:00.003+08:00

band in th morning (:
then after it end ,
went to KFC with jiayi .
ate then went home to change ,
& went to gym with jiayi again.
we ran , we cycle .
& then something happen (:
cant say :x
only my girlfriend know .
then sign out & bought something to eat .
saw sazlina & jiexin
then walk homed with girlf.
talked about everything (:
then rch home , went out to eat .
chat with korkor & sijia !
going to sleep soon
byebye (:

120th post :D

2008-11-06T13:58:00.003+08:00

haha ,
i am rotting at home :D
mummy say i can choose between doing hwk or go down t grandparent hse .
i choose go grandparent hse then hwk .
mummy say i have to complete all my hwk before 16 Nov
alot lor , i wonder how to finish tht pile.
was chatting with korkor on msn ,
but he have to go so i am rotting again .
i think i better cook my lunch & eat then go to grandparent hse
'so byebye :D

one step at a time

2008-11-04T22:44:00.004+08:00

tmr is th last day for appeals.
omgomgomg .
i cant decide .
mummy wants me to be in JC
so taking econs would be better than bio.
but i am scared i will drop econ halfway :/
i want to be a doctor in th future
but my phobia of blood is stopping me :/
& if i get bio , i could be in th same class with my friends.
well , i shld really stick to econs since i am alrdy in 3H.
if i want to be a doctor in th future , i could restudy?
then maybe at that time , i would have overcome my fear of blood .
& at least i get to be in th same class as them during e.literature
thats something happy ? :D

just one step at a time ,

2008-11-04T18:12:00.002+08:00

Hellohello, i'm not Chinleng k!
hahahahah, guess who th hacker is? (x
I'm her loverrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~
LOL, Chinleng's busy watching her drama.
I'm bored so i sneaked into here.
Heeheeheeheehee! :D
Our job hunting failed one after one:(
She's not happy haha.
K i'm so good t help her update. LOL.
BYE:D

Ps. Xuanjun here:p

2008-11-02T20:47:00.002+08:00

changed blogskin since i was bored.
tmr is th release of class allocation ><
i dont know what time to report sia .
haish , my sister need to use th com
so byebye :D

2008-10-30T20:23:00.003+08:00

went job-hunting with lover on wednesday :D
it wasnt easy .
went all th way to IMM but were patronised by store manager,
he call us to go home and WAIT for th call.
oh forget it ,
i am going to try again tmr after cca .
i am not gonna give up ,
for th sake of money .
i am so god damn broke D:
then my parent give lover a ride home .
she so damn cute :D
keep laughing sia !

--
today went to watch HSM3 at vivo with seemin , rachel ..
since all th others watch alrdy .
at the end of th show got 3 lil kids standing up and dancing .
so cute ! :D
then train to Bugis but seemin want to go home so train to Boonlay again .
bought something before going home.
bused home .
then here i am blogging ?
decided to go job-hunting tmr after band :D

2008-10-21T12:50:00.000+08:00

haha :D
i am in com lab now .
ms . fong let us surf th net .
yays ! i am gng oversea on 16 nov to 20 nov :D
this yr got oversea two times liao :p
daddy is getting me a PSP when he is free :D
but i abit guilty .
maybe i am asking too much ?
flu sia D:
keep sneezing .
seemin finding ppl buying hoodie cuz its capping at five but she is th only one now .
anyone wanna buy ?
go find her.
i wanna buy but may have to wait dam long sia .

2008-10-18T18:45:00.002+08:00

yeapyeap,
people are complaining that i didnt update.
haha, i dont have th time luhh.
next next week have public performance.
so th next week would be a hectic week :/
anw , my mom just said maybe my family would be roaming around malaysia (?) in th holiday.
:D since band didnt have any oversea trip this year,
most probably not in singapore from 16 nov to 20 nov .
this time with my grandma from my mother side , for th first time !
finally can relax le !
i have been tense up for weeks beacause of the exams.
but i been playing since the exams are officially over & since my resuts are over.
FYI , got 8th in class

well for th past few days, i went for band & th Kbox outing .
read krystal & abigail blog for more info ?
ahhaha ,dont wanna crap about it luh.

tmr is xuanjun's (lover) birthday.
they are gonna have a b. celebration at east coast .
wish her happy birthday in advance.
haish , new moon .

2008-09-27T22:48:00.005+08:00

grp photo

*cough cough*
went to th park ytd with qiuyun , crystal, xuanjun & her bro, abigail , seah cheng, alex & saepin .
climb th wierd thing & got stuck .
seah cheng help me get down .
haha :D
den walk with to JP to get drinks .
den went back .
slack around th park .
den walk to qiuyun hse at around 7 .
reach qiuyun hse
went in for awhile
den continue th journey back home :D
went home eat dinner, bathe & went to sleep immediately.
super tiredd . dunnoe why .
i think its beacause i sleep at 2 th previous day :p

i dun have th mood to study at all
i am a bad girl.

2008-09-22T22:15:00.005+08:00

well ,
i blogged.
cuz i was bored.
i am abit cranky today .
so ignore me ba .
i wanted to blog about smth :
but i tink its pointless so i shall shut up .
ahhhhhhhhh~
i shall go sleepless for tonight ,
cuz i am doomed.
i forget all about today's morning geo test.
flunk it .
cuz everytime i memorise didnt came out .
but those that i did not pay attention to came out .
FREAK !
who will rlly understand how i feel?
&jiaming came to ask me help him check whether th ice skating rink at JE still open .
but i cant check cuz exams are coming .
i feel so useless .
such a simple task & i cant help .
I SUCK.
i am gng to work this holiday .
who wan to accompany me ?

i thought friends shld not lie ;
but why did uue lie ? i noe its not th truth .
i dun dare to believe uue again D:
uue really break my heart . my best friend.

2008-09-15T17:59:00.004+08:00

well,
this blog is rotting .
& i cant update it often either .
EOY are coming ,
i must revise cuz i already promised that i will study hard.
what shld i do ?

i wanna go shopping :/

bt exams are jus weeks away

& i haven't save money.

i am going crazyy .

2008-09-01T21:31:00.004+08:00

picture speaks a thousand words

Sunday
went to SC hse after tuition .
they were watching disturbia .
quite a scary movie :/
there were 4 lovebirds there.
yichang , sheryl , rachel & yijie .
well , it was okkay .
as in th overall for th party.
:D
then watch Zohan(i think)
quite funny .
got some sexual stuff in it :x
but its for ppl to laugh.
some ppl played blackjack
few rounds only.
den i need to get home cuz my mom wan me to reach home at 9.
but didnt manage to rush home.
bus-ed to gek poh.
supposed to buy smth to eat ,
but too sian to eat
wlked home with shanping .

Monday
pepper lunch date with Qiuyun &xuanjun .
went to bugis .
ate pepper lunch .
shopped.
xuanjun was so excited when she was buying clothes.
den bought some stuff to eat.
& went to jurong east to meet my dad.
went to IMM with family.
ate PEPPER LUNCH again .
bt i didnt manage to finish it .
bought some stuff .
went home .

2008-08-29T21:43:00.002+08:00

went to school.
sleepless for th whole night
idiot eyebags !

arghhh !
i didnt get to see my tchers.
becuz of my CCA !
!@$%$&^%*%
i was late
den a fight broke out before i reach th school
den mr.pang chase alot of ppl out of th school .
i could not get in with jiayi & wanfeng but we barge in ,
got nagged by th security guard but ignored it .
signed in and walk around.
didnt see yanglaoshi T.T
FREAK MAN .
I FEEL LIKE SHOUTING OUT ALL TH VULGARITIES I NOE ~
oh man ,
but managed to see sijia,daoyi and zhi qi.
all grown pretty liao wor !
abigail left earlier.
i miss her super man.
we went to mac after being chased out of th school cuz i skipped my lunch .
chatted there & i was th only one eating.
discussed about th pros and cons of our school.
WWSS was th one with th least pros (or none at all) and th most cons.
hahah ;D now they realise how lucky they are in their respective schools.
we promised to meet up on tues .
dunnoe go where.
but with them , anywhere is fine :D
went to blk 500+ buy fruitss.
saw ppl selling minature cartoon lights that will change colour,
pester mummy to buy for me and she did :D
i am freee tmrrr. YIPEEEEEE!!

next week schedule
monday : pepper lunch express date with qy and xj ? or with anyone ?
tuesday: with my lovely girlfriends(sijia,daoyi,zhiqi(?),abigail(?)
wednesday: band
thursday: band
friday: band
saturday: i am freeeee
sunday : tuition for th whole afternoon.

2008-08-24T22:58:00.004+08:00

Friday
th girls celebrated my birthday in advance.
they bought a big cake for me & we ate it at th field there :D
i am so touched!!!
everyone gave me a hug & i felt like th happiest kid on earth.
thanks to those who wish me happy birthday !
leg cramp at night cuz of band punishment D:

Saturday
MY BIRTHDAY !
went for band with a plaster on my leg D:
th band sang me birthday song :D
met childish best friend after band.
went to bugis with her.
took neos
called joy th entire afternoon but she cant come out again.
abit pissed off but understand her situation.
went bak to JP to fetch th guys.
rachel was late so we manage to board th bus at around 6
reached and walked cuz we got off th bus too early ._.
bored there cuz alot of ppl missing .
nearly went home cuz it was really boring.
seah cheng tried to brighten up th atmosphere.
seemin went missing.
came back with a cake.
saepin & her paid for it
weiyang was so enthu about th cake :D
den played catching .
saepin was my partner.
keep climbing 'walls' sia .
heng that day was wearing a short that look like a skirt.
but still have some difficulty climbing 'walls'.
keep running around like monkey.
den went with some other ppl to fetch krystal&&& i forget >.<
seah cheng piggyback jiayi
jiayi kept screaming .
den saepin piggyback me .
i scared he collapse but he didnt :D
den shan peng (dunnoe spell correct anot) keep puting ice on my face.
haha ;D i threw ice into his shirt .
he try to do th same thing back to me but ye lao shi stopped him.
haha ;D he dam fed up den keep pinching my face.
den went home cuz quite late.
took cab with seemin , jiayi & brigitte .
second to reach home .
bathe and sleep :D

SUNDAY
woke up early to do tuition hwk.
went for tuition in th afternoon.
came back around evening ?
ate , bathe , hwk and now bloggin .
off to pack tmr home econ practical materials :D

THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY & GAVE ME PRESENTS !

2008-08-20T22:15:00.004+08:00

hhaha ,
today got back my english result .
quite happy with it .
I ♥♥♥ DEAR (QIUYUN)!
okkay ?
she make my day :p
& some more people.
although sometimes i quarrel with her and show her attitude.
but she bear with me :D
I ♥♥♥ MY CHILIDISH BEST FRIEND(SIJIA) !
she also make my day .
she's been with me since i was in primary school.
but we go separate schools D:
although i quarrel with her ,
we will be good friends again after three seconds.

i ♥♥♥ EVERYONE THAT TOLERATE MY SUCKY ATTITUDE.
too many ppl le :D
hahah .

since my DEAR is counting down ,
i shld count too .
2 more days to meeting my CHILDISH BEST FRIEND & my birthday.

2008-08-19T14:41:00.002+08:00

hehe ,
supposed to be at the school MRL doing proj .
in th end bloggin & surfing th net .
ahhah .
seemin make me say 'iloveyou' to her for 100times man .
now my throat is pretty dry ><
&jiayi is sitting beside me surfing th net .
pretty bored & quiet here ..
lalalla .
got back some of my test papers .
quite happy with most of them :D
& now there is these action guy behind me making a hell lot of nooise .
he keep singing but iduntinkitsoundnice.

N level is coming .
i shall go nagg at someone to study :D

2008-08-16T15:36:00.003+08:00

finally have th time to update.
although common test not over yet.
still got chemistry test on monday &other tests
band resume so fast lor.
running on friday.
i got a stupid small cut after doing pumping at th quadrangle ._.
haha :D my skin not thick .
den try out new scores.
side reading sucks man :p
haha , still got english journal book cover not completed yett.
and Home econs proj .
& my tuition hwk ...

2008-08-10T23:41:00.007+08:00

this photo look crappy
i look so troubled even when i am sleeping ; whats on my mind ? i wonder

ahhs ! i went to crystal blog & saw my sleeping photo !

man , it look like crap .

i didnt realise until just now ?!

yongyong was sleeping on my back and qiuyun was leaning on her .

haha ;D

complicated ?

we were super tired on that day mahh .

slept at th basement of JP carpark :p

----

i finally have time tmr !

i am going out ..

to th library ._.

for literature proj .

but at least i can go out before one week of horrible exams.

----

13 more days & i can see my childish best friend !

2008-08-07T02:08:00.004+08:00

this few days very busy .
its either tests or its rehearsal .
i totally flunk all my test .
th maths , geo & chemistry test
its like WTF ?!
i am trying to find time to go bugis shoppin D:
bt dun have th time ! arghh
tmr got FD reheasal & friday is NDp celebration + cultural expressions
omgomgomg.
sat - ??!! dunnoe doing what shit .
sunday-tuition
monday-lit proj with max , jiayi & seah cheng

when am i free?!

16 more days to my BIGBIG day .
i forget lover's birthday but now i rmb :D

i could only fake a smile & pretend nth rlly happened ):

2008-08-05T22:33:00.002+08:00

open my blog .
cuz got ppl complain that th soon too long :D
i will try to blog cuz exams are coming
& i shld revise more.
just now talking on phone with jiayi &seah cheng & max.
mostly crap den lit stuff .
monday meeting each other to do lit stuff ,
most probably talk crap :)
omg ,hectic scheldue .
there is like test everyday D:
& nxt wk is common test
this whole wk is occupied by cultural expression & NDP .
i cant keep up with this kind of life .
burstin soon !
anw off to pack bag & sleep .
i have not sleep properly for ages :D
byes (:

2008-07-08T22:38:00.004+08:00

everythings normal :D
there was pe
sit & reach - 34cm :/
i cant stretch much
lit rehersal ><
i keep forgetting about th mike
cme , tcher scoldscoldscold
physic, learnlearnlearn
chinese, writewritewrite
after that is bandbandband
den jiayi & wanfeng pei me wait for my family to pick me up
den went to gek poh develop photos and went home.
daddy went out to work
so late le D:
tmr 6.45 am report sia
so early ><
off to prepare for tmr :D

2008-07-07T20:36:00.006+08:00

6june:
tuition in th afternoon
went for relative wedding dinner at night
reached home late.

today:
woke up late
meet seemin & went to bugis
didnt bought clothes cuz i was broke :/
went to jurong east
played at the arcade
took bus 183 & meet my mom at her office
sent seemin home and home sweet home
ate dinner , bathe & blogging now
3more days to concert ><

what are friends for ?
to hide things frm them ?
i am utterly dissapointed in uue T-T

2008-07-03T20:44:00.003+08:00

read class blog .
no wonder ppl hate sathish
uue noe wad he did ?
he KICK my new schoolbag & ran off TODAY.
WITOUT saying sorry .
no manners luhh @
i hate him #@%$&&%
& he say class tee is a rag !!
doing maths wkst now
later need do english hwk
a day in th life of ms. fong !

2008-07-03T18:37:00.002+08:00

woohoo
i changed th font
i hope it can be seen now :D
thanks to jiayi ,
lit work allocation is finally out
me & max will be doing th character traits
have to stay back after school to do le
aiyohhhs :x
busybusybusy!
i haven finish my tuition hwkkkkk !

next week events :
10th july - concert
12nd july - homecoming (drama)
next week - lit proj deadline

2008-07-03T16:40:00.003+08:00

i have no idea on how to enlarge th words :/
anyone help ?
came back from school jus now .
walk-ed home alone
tiring day :/
rehersalrehersalrehersal
7days to concert &
9 more days to homecoming uhhhhhhh !
its like so busyyyyyyyy
esp.the drama ><
omgomgomgomg
exhausted.

2008-07-01T20:30:00.004+08:00

watched movies during CME & chinese lesson
one is army daze which i have watched 3-4 times :/
can rmb the whole story liao
th other one is 童夢奇緣
very touching :/
school end early tdy ;D
went to gekpoh to eat
chatted at mac with yongyong , twinny , sweethart & Kenneth
went down with yongyong & sweethart to get her photo printed
went back to mac
twinny leave first
den yongyong was deciding whether she walk to jp or take 172 home
after awhile , twinny came back
we were all surprised
she waste one bus fare cuz she leave her shoebag at mac
blur twinny uhh !
went up with her to take shoebag
den twinny, sweethart & yongyong decided to walk home
i bus-ed home :D

2008-06-30T23:42:00.005+08:00

tdy lessons was th usual
nothing unusual happen.
nearly doze off during art
cuz its was all theorytheorytheory
after school ate with jiayi , weiyang ,wanfeng & twinny
i went for band ;D
bt my mom is not happy about it
after band walked home with wanfeng&jiayi
wanfeng was superrr funnnny
she say mus drink more milk den ur bone will be stronger
its true luhh but very funny
bus-ed home from gekpoh
ate dinner with parent & finish up my hwk
miracle sia :D
first time complete my hwk before 10?
i always complete my hkw around midnight .
i am starting to be hardworking den ever :p
tmr sure super tired one luhh
PE jus right after rev-up ,woah
lit project {!}
too busy too dooooooo D:

2008-06-29T21:45:00.002+08:00

tuition tdy ;D
i did my hwk
packin bag now
i am lookin on th bright side nw
idunnoewadtodotmr
omgomgomgomgomg
{sleepless night}

2008-06-28T21:07:00.002+08:00

went to bugis with my sister , dear & twinny
called joy three to five times
she didnt pick up :/
pissed off .
sms her also dun reply
finally someone pick up
bt that person say she is busy & she will call me ltr
four hrs gone bt nv hear from her at all
nevermind
bought a new schoolbag ;D
its like fragile(?)
i jus scared that th strap will snap :/
fourty dollars lehhh !
bought two clothes for my sister
take neo with sis . dear & twinny
bought one shirt with my sister & dear
it says evil twinny >
hahha . imagine three of us standin beside each other
th one at th end not wearing th shirt is th victim .
we played at th shop la .
the salesgirl joined in lor
den walked abit & went home
my sis & qiuyun keep laughin at each other
i really had a crazy time today
thanks to my mom who gave me $$$
or else tdy sure cant buy anything tdy =p
i am so lucky to have a nice family & such a good bunch of girlfriends :D